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Frustrated

I am just frustrated. I gave myself goals at the beginning of the year and yeah so far I’ve done pretty well. But I can’t help but feel so frustrated. I went to the gym for two months consecutively and I was happy about that. I was going to the gym everyday after work when I could and I noticed that my little tummy pooch was going down. Then something happened and I don’t know how it happened.

I stopped going to the gym. It’s only been about week since I worked out and I am noticing it. My pooch is coming back and my eating habits have been awful. I looked at pictures tonight that were from when I was working out all the time and all I saw was that chubby face that I hate. And I became over whelmed and frustrated. What is happening? I work out and eat well and still feel huge. I don’t work out and don’t eat well and I feel huge. It’s ridiculous. I know many of you may be reading this and getting frustrated at me. This sounds so negative and how am I ever going to get over this hump is to become positive. I understand that. But for some reason it doesn’t help.

I still have very supportive friends and family. None of them have seen me in the last couple of weeks and pointed and yelled, “Amy when did you eat a baby hippo”, that’s just hurtful. And I don’t think that they think these things either.Ā  I used to think that it was society that put so much pressure on me. But I am one of the lucky ones that can still go into stores and find clothes that fit. I fit in all chairs, I feel little next to some of my giant friends and people still say I’m pretty. Maybe it’s me putting so much pressure on me. Please don’t get me wrong I don’t think society has helped but I don’t think I’ve helped either.

I feel like I am giving up too easily. As I’ve talked to my friends getting into shape isn’t easy for anyone. And while some days feel more difficult than others, it’s just as easy to get on a bike as it is to fall off. Sometimes easier cause getting on a bike doesn’t involve gravel in your knee. I’m not really sure what my revelation is for this post and I feel pretty ok with that. Mostly because I think that sometimes we don’t always have a revelation. Sometimes I’m going to be frustrated and not figure out how to fix the frustration. And sometimes I think that’s ok.


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  1. * Elisa says:

    Do you want to break plates? šŸ™‚

    I feel you Paco, I feel the same way much of the time. And with a 10K to train for in August I’ve really gotta make a decision here. Gym bag is always in the car but rarely used. I must be better…must be better…

    | Reply Posted 12 years, 6 months ago
    • * Amy says:

      I sometimes want to break plates, but not for this reason. I just like breaking things. We can be better together! We must be better together!

      | Reply Posted 12 years, 6 months ago
  2. * Noreen says:

    Hmmmm…….. Aren’t Goals FUN!!

    What will keep you motivated?

    Find that and work with it….Maybe a buddy system, maybe a weekly treat, maybe pictures of the beach….

    I know you can do it or better yet I KNOW you WANT to do it!!!!

    | Reply Posted 12 years, 6 months ago
    • * Amy says:

      Thanks Noreen. I know I have to find what works best for me. Motivation is usually what gets me going, just lately I haven’t had much motivation. Hopefully after writing this I will get it back. Because I’m not a quitter. Not this easily.

      | Reply Posted 12 years, 6 months ago
  3. * Alyssa says:

    As a charter member of the I-eat-my-problems-club, I must say that frustration is part of life. It is what you do with that frustration that defines you. You are one of the strongest, most beautiful women I know so keep on keepin on, and please, if you decide to eat a baby hippo do so in several sittings. They are shockingly large.

    | Reply Posted 12 years, 6 months ago
  4. * Amy says:

    Lyssa, simply put I adore you. For a million reasons, but mainly for making me laugh when I want to scream. You are really good at that! Thank you for thinking that I deal with frustrations so well and making me think that I can get over anything. And if I do eat a baby hippo, well I’ll call you. I know it’s one of your favorite meals šŸ˜‰

    | Reply Posted 12 years, 6 months ago


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